Dec 4, 2016 – Do angels send hugs from heaven? If they do Baby Girl, can you please send one to Daddy today. I can tell that he is struggling, but he just doesn’t know how to say it. You know Daddy, (Mr. Positive). He is always intent on being strong for everyone else, and keeps his pain hidden. I can tell today is one of those days.
It seems like the small things are often the most difficult these days. For many people raking leaves is a small thing, but for Daddy it is much more. It makes him face reality that you are gone. holds special memories. Daddy has been talking about raking the leaves, but hadn’t gotten to it for weeks. Every time he talks about it, he mentions you, and the times you shared out there. This morning he talked about how excited you would get when he covered you in leaves as he blew them on top of you, how you always grabbed the rake to help him, or followed his every move around the yard. He cherished these moments he spent with his “Baby Girl”. He didn’t say how he was feeling, but I could tell. I understood his pain.
Daddy did go out to rake the leaves, but he wasn’t out there long. He walked back in the house, and said he was done for the day. I wanted to ease his pain, so I went out to finish the yard. Daddy does so much to help me, so I wanted to return the favor. As soon as I walked out I realized why he returned so quickly. Our neighbor was out doing yard work with his little girl. You remember the house across the street with the swing set in the front yard? She was following her Dad around just as you had done with him. He will never say it, but I knew what he felt. He felt complete happiness for this man and his daughter, but complete pain that he would never experience the joy of raking again.
That is why i ask you to send Daddy a hug today. Even the strongest Daddy can use a special hug from his little girl, especially hugs that are heaven-sent.
Hugs, kisses and high fives “Baby Girl”
I love and miss you so much!