From the moment I met Gerald, his passion for music shined through his soul. From day one, he expressed how much he loved music. It was something I didn’t understand at the time to be honest. Music was just music to me. As I got to know him, and we shared our life’s stories with each other I started to realize music was his savior through all the challenging times he faced in his life. It was his survival mechanism. To him music is healing, soothing, a way for him to express his feelings in a positive way. Music has always given him the power to move forward, and see life’s more positive side.
As I sit here today dealing with the loss of Kiyana, I find myself yearning for music. Gerald voice singing the songs he’s written over the past 20 years. The magical moments that Gerald and Kiyana shared singing songs together. Kiyana’s impromptu concerts with songs she wrote on the spur of the moment, and I miss the singing and keyboard lessons he gave Kiyana. I miss it ALL I feel like I need his passion for music to help me SURVIVE the tough days. I finally understand the importance of music in Gerald’s life. I know it has become a very important part of my life.
I have been concerned for him since Kiyana’s death, because I see that writing and singing is bitter-sweet for him. It is something I completely understand, because music is his first love, but it reminds him of his greatest love; Kiyana. All the memories they shared together singing makes it painful. I have noticed a change in his voice. There is a deeper emotion that comes through when he sings now. Gerald says he SINGS FOR KIYANA now. He wants to share her with the world.
I pray that music gets us both through the greatest challenge of our life so far. Please GOD help us find our way, and help Gerald continue his passion for music. This will bring great happiness for both of us.
July 5, 2015 will always be a special day. I was so blessed to be part of this special moment they shared. It filled a dream for him. He was able to sing the song he wrote for her while they danced together. Amazing!